imageWe all have things that we want to do, we have to and then things that we find reasons to do. Those things would work quite nicely in that ball of “WHY”.

I want to be a successful actress. There are many things that I need to do. Want to do. And sometimes, find reasons to do. But why is it easier for me to find a reason to go to CrossFit, flip a 250 Pound tire, do 100 pushups, deadlifts… burpees? I can leave  my house. Drive 15 minutes to the gym. Torture myself for an hour. Come back home and somehow have no energy to do any of the tasks at hand to get me where I need to be.

I want to be a successful actress. And yet, I find reasons to follow a different path. I dont want to be a professional or even an amateur powerlifter.

I want to be a successful actress. However, I seem to find excuses not to do my work. Being an actress is so much more than just acting. Just an hour a day. I spend that hour flipping tires, but why cant I buckle down and focus on creating a budget, contact agents, write postcards or any of the other millions of things on my to do list.

I want to be a successful actress. The happiness I feel, the gratifying feeling deep in my soul. The way it feels to be on stage singing for a crowd. Standing in front of a camera. Have you ever really looked at what makes your soul smile?

My soul is never happier than when I am following my dreams. I want to be a successful actress and that needs to stick with me, when I am so tired that I cant move. Remember the why. The reasons I do what I do, and what I want and where I want to be.

I want to be a successful actress.

Confessions of an introvert…


The older I get, the more to myself I get. The less I want to put myself out there. It has to do a lot with my comfort zone. I need to find a way out of that bubble and break free. As always, it is a work in progress.




Naturally I do my best thinking with my moustache on… It means I’m getting down to business. Down to figuring out my next move. Where I want to be. What I want to be doing.

Todays brainstorming session is focusing on combining forces. Working with someone. I feel that working by yourself can become monotonous and boring, but working with someone can bring new light to any work.

The more I think about it, the more excited I get to put ideas into motion. I’m not sure what craziness will come out of this, but stay tuned because I’m pretty sure it will be awesome!

Fresh Start



I was at a point in my adventure where I was emotionally drained. It had nothing to do with the business or my dream. It was me. I was burnt out. I had to take a step back and work on who I am, and what I wanted. I needed to take care of myself.

As of a few weeks ago, I have found where I need to be. I have reconnected with my goals. I could not be happier. I have been pushing myself and completing more tasks in a week than I was in a month before. I feel like my brain has realigned with my heart and I am ready to take on everything that could be thrown at me.

Knowing that you have made mistakes, and then growing from them is a huge part of the battle. I will not let my mistakes hold me back, rather they will propel me forward.

Time management


I’ve always lived my life in a way that you write out a to-do list and as you complete tasks you cross them out. Then you move on without taking into account how long each task will take you. For instance… On my list today was to write a blog. Normally I would write, edit and post and it would probably take me  an hour. However, I now have a schedule that I am to follow only allowing me a certain amount of time per day on each task. Today I am allotted 30 minutes. I probably won’t finish it today (2/5/16) in my allowed time. And honestly, it messes with my mind.

The idea that I can’t finish what i started is absolutely messing with me. There is such a satisfactory feeling of completing a task that I feel like I am missing with this new schedule. However, I also am able to complete more tasks this way… Which is also making my head spin.

I’m a work in progress and I’m sure I’ll get the hang of it one day. The best thing I can do for myself is keep trying. It will become second nature one day.



I’ve come to the realization that your dreams are always a part of you no matter how you spend your time. It’s just a matter of how you want to use that energy. I’ve been doing a lot of self care to get me to a happy and healthy mindset in doing so I’ve noticed that no matter what I do, my heart is always in acting. I go to performances and cry when they begin because I feel it. The passion and love tugging at me. That I’m doing the right things. It’s such a strong force and I’m not even sure if I’m explaining it correctly or coherently.

I’m working on lots of things right now. Mainly just building my brand, networking and updating everything. It’s been a rough summer and I’m very happy to be feeling this way again.

Hope everyone has a day above the rest! ❤