Like a small boat
On the ocean
Sending big waves
Like how a single word
Can make a heart open
I might only have one match
But I can make an explosion
I am feeling like the little engine that could right now, or maybe even the energizer bunny. I just keep going and going. Sometimes I need to take breaks, or I get distracted. That is when I take a step back and assess what it is I really do want. It is in those moments that the universe usually interjects and reminds me.
In this most recent instance, the moment when I was feeling like I could be swayed in either direction, I received a phone call from a company asking me if I am available to work. I did not even submit myself that day for any work. The day of shooting, I was the happiest I had been in a long time. I felt rejuvenated and ready to take over the world. This is truly what I want for my life. This is the career I want to pursue and the job I want to go to every day. Thanks for the reminder universe!
So… this is my fight song. Take back my life song.
I’ve always lived my life in a way that you write out a to-do list and as you complete tasks you cross them out. Then you move on without taking into account how long each task will take you. For instance… On my list today was to write a blog. Normally I would write, edit and post and it would probably take me an hour. However, I now have a schedule that I am to follow only allowing me a certain amount of time per day on each task. Today I am allotted 30 minutes. I probably won’t finish it today (2/5/16) in my allowed time. And honestly, it messes with my mind.
The idea that I can’t finish what i started is absolutely messing with me. There is such a satisfactory feeling of completing a task that I feel like I am missing with this new schedule. However, I also am able to complete more tasks this way… Which is also making my head spin.
I’m a work in progress and I’m sure I’ll get the hang of it one day. The best thing I can do for myself is keep trying. It will become second nature one day.